Image of her, How i imagine.


​​Some days I miss her,
But I’d never tell her this. 
Because you know what it is that I really do miss? 

I miss only my thoughts about what it is that she is. 

And the curve of her waist, the distort of her lips. 
And at the end of the day the only thought left is this…

I can tolerate this, 

Because I don’t really want what she really is.
When I see her photograph. It’s nothing personal. Just life.

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Image of her, How i imagine.

I dont wanna feel forever

If we never met I would never known
you ever existed,
I know it may sound cruel of me
talking this away, but no one understands
the pain you gave,
I wouldn’t be so fearful if you never existed,
you scared my heart from the start,
I just didn’t know it at the time,
I was so blind by your lies,
but I feel it all now,
the cuts digging deeper down inside my heart,
you give me darken dreams
that made me scream,
I seen things I never expected to see,
on that cold September night,
The rain poured down into my life,
I know I’m scared of you,
when I see, you standing in front of me,
Your eyes so piecing, cutting into the night
Oh, how you give so much fright,
The weakest part of it all,
I once started believing you lies,
even when I know what you say wasn’t true,
I also know this isn’t true,
I once felt love for you,
But that sounds crazy to,
I didn’t expect to see you again,
but every September there you are
Playing around on my heart,
I can only hope for this nightmare to end.

I dont wanna feel forever….

until you come back home.

I dont wanna feel forever

I THINK I LOST SOMETHING

I left it here,
came back
a different person
searching for the same object.

Three years
of moving back and forth
searching for it,
frantically blind
in every nook and cranny,
in eyes filled with words only
I couldn’t read,
in corners, seams,
damn even
web-like cracks on the walls.

I kept searching
til it drove me
mad.

They say lost objects show themselves
by the time you’ve stopped searching,
so I did.

I stopped searching,
see it’s already lost.

We are both lost.

I don’t know where to find it,
and I don’t think it still remembers
its way
back to me.

I am sure I will get it one day just a broken piece I will take care the rest.
I THINK I LOST SOMETHING

Let me live again


​Am I to wait then , my liege 

for the light of death to reveal

your shining face ,

when I can see , my wants and needs 

turn to ashes like the salt in the sea.

Have I the strength to follow thee ?

dive into the wells of despair ,

slip through the fangs of ecstasy …
I can see , I can see !

a lick of fire I may be 

but magnificent is your world with its poorest riches.
rare is its lowest of seats

rare is its cruelest of thieves

rare is the silence that I am yet to hear

rare are the tears,the pain and the fears
let me live again 

only those moments that was spent with you…

Memories remember?
~That Random Guy

Let me live again

But what if…


​I’ll write everyday

Even if I write about nothing

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Even if it isn’t the least bit good

but what if..
I’ll write everyday 

Because silence is compliance 

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Because they haven’t broken me yet

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Even if no one reads it

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Even if it makes you mad

but what if..
I’ll write everyday 

Because I need to let you know

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Because my conscious tells me so
but what if.. I will be here no more?
#DarkThoughts

But what if…

Dear YouIDesigner

I close my eyes

I see a street 

Where I walked with you

Under the moon

Streets now

Have changed

People have changed

but saw someone standing there

in the dark.

‘my days were dark before as the nights’

And I can not even see you

Somebody has stolen the moon

Some one stole the sun

Clouds they gather

And cry for some one

it was raining

raining heavily

Some one fired a gun

I fell on my knees

I wanted to scream your name

In a screaming silence 

I’m yelling please

but i was quite

SO WERE YOU

YOU NEEDED ME

YOU HAD ME

BUT I LEFT

SAYING SOME ROUGH WORDS

WHICH WERE NOT MEANT TO BE

Streets have changed 

People have changed

I can see you

Am i missing you or an illusion

You it was you

yes you are YOU

who is special

for me

EVER EVER NEED ME NOW

REGRETTING MY PAST

I WILL BE WITH YOU

FOREVER

YES NO MATTER WHAT ♥

I LOVE YOU
So,

Had a dream last night

So cold and so lonely

(but you were there)

There was no light

(but a ray of hope)

No one with me

(you were right there)

You thought you are lonely

(3years and counting I will be forever with you)

So together? 

~That Random Guy

Dear YouIDesigner