I dont wanna feel forever

If we never met I would never known
you ever existed,
I know it may sound cruel of me
talking this away, but no one understands
the pain you gave,
I wouldn’t be so fearful if you never existed,
you scared my heart from the start,
I just didn’t know it at the time,
I was so blind by your lies,
but I feel it all now,
the cuts digging deeper down inside my heart,
you give me darken dreams
that made me scream,
I seen things I never expected to see,
on that cold September night,
The rain poured down into my life,
I know I’m scared of you,
when I see, you standing in front of me,
Your eyes so piecing, cutting into the night
Oh, how you give so much fright,
The weakest part of it all,
I once started believing you lies,
even when I know what you say wasn’t true,
I also know this isn’t true,
I once felt love for you,
But that sounds crazy to,
I didn’t expect to see you again,
but every September there you are
Playing around on my heart,
I can only hope for this nightmare to end.

I dont wanna feel forever….

until you come back home.

I dont wanna feel forever


I left it here,
came back
a different person
searching for the same object.

Three years
of moving back and forth
searching for it,
frantically blind
in every nook and cranny,
in eyes filled with words only
I couldn’t read,
in corners, seams,
damn even
web-like cracks on the walls.

I kept searching
til it drove me

They say lost objects show themselves
by the time you’ve stopped searching,
so I did.

I stopped searching,
see it’s already lost.

We are both lost.

I don’t know where to find it,
and I don’t think it still remembers
its way
back to me.

I am sure I will get it one day just a broken piece I will take care the rest.

But what if…

​I’ll write everyday

Even if I write about nothing

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Even if it isn’t the least bit good

but what if..
I’ll write everyday 

Because silence is compliance 

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Because they haven’t broken me yet

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Even if no one reads it

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Even if it makes you mad

but what if..
I’ll write everyday 

Because I need to let you know

but what if..
I’ll write everyday

Because my conscious tells me so
but what if.. I will be here no more?

But what if…



What happened between you two? ~they asked

nothing, we both are good 😀 ~I replied



others knowingly know

neither of us trying to make things slow


Save this

Relationship he screamed


Love ? Where are you?


Everything is fine…

Everything will be okay..

Just lets not delay…

I miss your smile…

I miss your talks…

I miss you cause I love you…



~Random Thought


Fill Me…

I have forgotten you now
my mind barely works wow
and swallow the pain
That dried rose and my crisp veins

I pressed its skinny spine
Against the pages of my book a with a glass of wine.

Moments in certain
Gentle feeling of you in brains
Shuffling the papers
Picking the rose
That now a ripeness rose

Come back and fill the colors
Come back and give life to it
Come back and fill the freshness
Come back and return it’s fragrance

Giving the water with my tears

Speak my chances
Speak like my heart

Come back
Fill me
Fill me with the fear
Fear of loving you

Fill me

~That Random Guy

Fill Me…